from the line in the address bar at the top of the page, you’ve probably figured out that my name is Anna. if you don’t know who I am yet, you can check out my about me page to learn a little more!
as a first post, i just wanted to share where i am currently and a little of where I have been the past few years and months. then i can start sharing more current stories, because i personally feel like i can relate to more recent events than past ones…does that make any sense?
anyways, I might as well start at one of the biggest changes of my life so far. about three years ago, I moved to New Jersey from Florida. since then, i have struggled mostly with patience and waiting on different things; the main waiting being finding true friendships. part of that is attributed to the fact that while living in Florida, i was surrounded by people who were pretty similar to me, in particular my closest friend, Hannah (you will hear so much about her in coming stories, so try not to get too annoyed with me :)). my family was surrounded by other Christian families with lots of kids like us, and I never really had to ‘worry’ about seeking out other friendships or even navigate a world where people who served the Lord were hard to find. and at first glance, it seems like that is exactly where we came to.
this place is so so different both from where we came from, and also from what i expected…
as much as it is fun exploring a new place, and as much as i love traveling, i like to keep moving, and i am stubborn when i form an opinion about something or some place.
God is still breaking my shell and teaching me to find light in the places i thought were too dark.
i have learned so much about who i am (and am becoming) since coming here. if i had my way, i would choose not to spend my teen years here, but i know better than to think that my plans could be better than the Lord’s. my best friends have been all of my (way-too-many) journals, and i am learning to be okay with that. i am making memories.
so i guess, in a way, this is another journal for me, another way to document all the things that are happening in my life currently. i think that girls my age in particular need to be more honest with each other. i think that we hurt each other when we tell only part of our story. i want to change that about us; i want us to make an effort to be invested in each other in a totally selfless, unnatural way. i am ready to step outside my comfort zone; to tell the whole story more often.
also, it sounds weird, but I think there is importance in holding someone’s hand… to me it feels like two different people are coming together and making a decision to serve each other by letting go of our selfish desires. so i guess what i’m trying to say is, i want to hold your hand.
anna cherie